my song from the heart and soul
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
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is it hard to live on?even life is too hard!!
Wednesday, October 03, 2007
life is not easy, not just like u flush ur toilet, all the bad things will gone and back to normal..
life is not easy as when u turn ur hand or twist the things..
life is hard to find, to pass through or even to stay in the condition that we face..
when u have trouble, u blame god is unfair, but u still ask for help
when u face the truth, u said i dont want to stay life, i want to dissappear and never back
but when u try to stay on, every single problem, the trouble will always comes and it never ends
is it hard to live on?
to live, we need the courage, but everytime the courage come, the new problem will come as well
to live, we need belief, but when belief facing, the doubt of living will come and it will never end
to live, we need to try, but every time we try, we always fall down, and try to face up the sky.
is it hard to live on?
live in this life, every problems and trouble always come, and it always have the answer
live in this life, every tears will drop but it will never dry up
live in this life, every single brave will face the darkness but in never end.
is it hard to live on?
i try to stand by my self, but i still need help, dont i?
i try to face the truth, but i still cry and want to run away, dont i?
even i try to breath, sometime i want to stop breathing, and hope everything will be fine after that..
but im thinking, when i stop to live on, what will happen to the others?
is it hard to live on?
hour by hours i always think, but why this mind never stop thinking even for awhile?
day by days i always worry, but why this worried is never gone?
year by years i always live, but why this life seems to be hard to live on?
is it hard to live on?
when the problems comes, we always solve it, but the new one is always waiting..
when the tears drop, we always smile but why it still drops?
when this heart still beating, we always thanks but why sometime we want to give up on it?
is it hard to live on?
we know this world is never stop to round, because its impposible
we know the sun always shining in the morning, and we know it always happen
we know every day will become a night, and wheel always rounding..
but why we never realize that we always have reason to make everything right
is it hard to live on?
thats question always sounding in my head, and is it really hard to answer?
life is too hard, that statement always passing in my mind and is it really hard to still alive?
every problems have the answer to solve
every worriedness have the reason to show
every tears have the right to drop
every single days have the reason to pass through
will it be hard to stay and live on?
i dont want to stop thinking, i dont want to stop crying
coz it is life that we live on, we always have reason
i dont want to stop worrying, i dont want to stop pretending
coz it is world that we live on, we always have to do it
sometime i dont want the problem come to visit
but when it visit, we have something new that we learnt
sometime i dont want to stay live on
but in this live, we have the meaning of life
is it hard to believe?thats hard to live on, but we still need to live
there is nothing wrong with the problem..sometime we made the problem
there is nothing wrong with the life..sometime we need to be strong
and there is nothing wrong with make the mistake, coz with the mistake we always learn
but somepeople will understand and always move on..
life is something that we have to be blame, be the trouble, be the love, be the hate and to be understand
live is something that we have to breath, to courage, to fall down, and to stand up back and move forward
nothings wrong with that..no matter what happen, past is the past..
trying to not be regret, but its ok to regret sometime..we still move on
dont give up, coz the solution it will never appear when we give up..
trouble will come for sure, problem will appear to face through
but human always made to back up each other, and stay to live on..
is it hard to believe?thats we always have someone on our back to back up anything, but please dont have the doubt
im trying to be good, to solve every problems and im trying to not give up until i lost my breath away
im trying to take care, this life that we had and im tryin to keep it until god take it back.
believe in me when i believe in you..
believe in solution when trouble will come..
dont stop to believe, dont stop to learn, dont stop to drop the tears
im tryin to cheer up this life..
maybe its hard to live on, but its not hard to cheer up, right?
maybe its hard to live on, but its not hard to solve the problem, right?
maybe its hard to stand up, but please dont give up everything that you have..
i know its hard to live on coz this life is too hard to pass through, but we always have the meaning of life and memories
i dont care its good or bad, its still memories
i dont care its wrong or right, its still the life and we will make everything right, dont we?
coz in this world, right can be wrong and also wrong can be right, it depends on how u see it
am i right?coz every people have their own sight, but we try to understand it..
dont doubt every single solution,,coz no matter what new trouble, new tears new smile will always waiting for us..
we live for that..we live for everything good or bad
we live for this people around us..
day become night, and in the tomorrow it will be the same..
wheel always change the side, up to down and become up again..
it have the diffrent colour..
remember that..coz live is never simple, but we need to live on
lay on each other, depend on how u make it right..
and we always have the reason..reason to make wrong into right..
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song translate!!
Thursday, July 05, 2007
No one could ever know
how our relationship
is going...
some might get it wrong
and might understand as
only what their eyes could see
Perhaps only two of us, among those millions stars,
who really know what's exactly on our minds
Is it that really important……to follow the rule
that someone has made
what love is like
"No need to know where we are standing
No need to find any words to explain
no need to love like a couple ...I'm satisfied
only understanding is beyond anything in this world"
Even we are apart
and never be together
every night everyday
like any couples
Even there's no one could understand this love
At least ..only you who understand me..that's enough
Perhaps only two of us, among those millions stars,
who really know what's exactly on our minds
Is it that really important…..to follow the rule
that someone has made
what love is like....
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when god show his way...i cant say anything,
Monday, June 04, 2007
thx to god, that he give the miracle happen..maybe now im as human will start and think egois again.. sometime i dont one miracle just happen once..always want more and want the easiest way in life to handle everything..
i dont know, can i solve all my problem??my problem of life, about how hard this life play on me..i dont know what is god plan this time..but everything is related one to each other..
problem every problem i can pass, like i never found the end of all the problem..after i pass one problem, there is another problem come up in front of my eyes, and it hide between my bed.. make me hard to go to sleep and always think about it..cant stop thinking, cant stop wondering and always make new plan..try to keep moving and solving the problem that never end..
the other day, start thinking and wondering making planning for next term of time but it like my plan not gonna work at all..when all the plan look so perfect, have no trouble but suddenly it boom when problem come..all my plan ruin again..and must start it from the beginning again!!
but now i cant find any way to solve problem, and now problem already have plan for me for next month, and i still cant solve the previous problem..i dont know what is behind all the problem that god create for me..to break me into a piece or to give me a lesson that life is not easy like we thought..or every problem have their own meaning..but can god create the way when i cant solve the problem??or i just hoping and wishing about miracle again..like i just life with the miracle in my life!!
i dont know what way he want to show to me..and im speechless, clueless, and i almost give up to find all the problem solving..but i cant give up and i wont give up..im trying and tryin..hard to believe but that is life..when u run from problem and u cant solve it, u will run forever and blame about this life..i dont want run from problem and trouble..even i know its hard to face but it harder if u run from it..it seem so messed up with ur head..not just hiding under your bed..
god, i wont ask u about miracle all the time, but please lead me to the right way..guide me to the way that u want to show me..but if i cant find any path please that is the time u need to show miracle..
keep the path in my head, solve the problem that i ever had..
keep move on with my life, with all the past that keep me wake, to find the truth..
give me strong, dont let tears come up from ur eyes..it tore my heart so bad..
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love of my life, meaning of the time..
Friday, May 25, 2007
world already playing hard to me..
keep my eyes full of tears, tore my heart into a piece
put me in to the game that i must win in..
i choose it, i made it..
like a war that i give in, hold my dream when i put in.
make a lies, hold the time
fool my self into the bound..
fake the life that i am on
im the own of all the ground
i know my life is fake, i am just a lies..
never telling the truth, keep the mystery on mind
never regret, no worries, thats all the lies..
try to be the strongest one..
but there's something that made me live
about the burden that i cant gave it up
say good bye, let someone go..i cant make it happen!!
im not ready to leave, not even ready to lost
i must win the heart that keep me on
love of my life that i get real..
all the meaning of the time and answers of the lies..
the truth of the fake, full the emptiness of my mind, my heart, my soul
keep my self cry, growling and mumbling all the time
where'd you go this time??i just want you to stay in this life
dont you ever leave me, coz my life is nothing without you in my side
better you take my breath away and bring me with you all the time
dont leave me, coz u are my strength, never found someone like you in my life
you are the truth of all the lies, you are the light of all the darkness
you are the water for the thirst, you are the hope of my life
i found the meaning of the life when im with you,
looking for the ground that i never knew..
feel the real in every beat of my heart..
be strong, i need you
open your eyes, and see im nothing without you
hold me tight, im fragile
be my side, and i will be yours..
we pass everything together, be the truth and never put lies..
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I WANNA SCREAM
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
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I REALLY WANNA SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PLEASE DO A MIRACLE GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I BEG U...PLEASE!!!!
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LOVE always makes me cry, either tears of joy or sadness..its hard to believe!!!
Thursday, May 03, 2007
i just remembered about blog "two thing always make connection and cant be separated, and always eternal like that" that i ever wrote..
when i realize love and hate, faith and doubt, truth and lies, trust and distrustful, long and close distance..
love and hate..always be like that!!but u will realize ur love is bigger than hate!!
i dont know why LOVE always makes me cry..
when i hurt someone that important to my life and i will cry..
when they hurt me, i will cry..
but when u hurt someone that u really love, you will feel horrible and tortured and want to take the time and want take all back..
in the other way, if someone that you love hurt u, tortured you, you will become so patient and wait even your heart crying but not even more than u hurt someone that you love..
i remembered when one of my friends in university ask me about his girlfriend, why his girlfriend told him " you the one who can make me laugh and cry in the same time" he become so confused and thought he done something bad to her girlfriend..
and that time i told him: "should all the tears come when u sad??even we know we crying because we sad or angry..but tears could come when we feel the joy and happiness..not always sadness can make us cry!! tears of joy that i called them.."
this time i will write about LOVE which always can makes me cry in sad way or either in the happy and joy..
too many things i already passed through..bad and good things and i always look of them and take the advantages..
but when i look of the bad or good thing, love is the main character that affect all of the things mostly..
i cant tell who's life that really makes me cry, you can guess, this is mine or the other people..
i really hate being cheated..cheated by my family, friends, lovers or anyone..
who can stand with lies??nobody cant..everybody want the truth!!
but behind the lies that is the truth, can u imagine that??
u lies to someone because u want show the truth to someone..
working really hard and always said "i have no problem at all dear, i can handle everything and i already finish the stuff that we must finish" but in the other hand the stuff not finished yet..u need work really hard and sleep less to accomplish everything until the truth spreading and you will feel u have been cheated..but in the other hand she want to prove that she really love you and want the best for you, she didnt want you know because she worried it will become your burden and she doesn't want to put any burden in your shoulder..
thats why i said loves always makes me cry...
when you can feel the joy and happiness, you cried
when you been hurt, you cried
when you cant protect someone that you love, you cried
when your lover prove her love to you, you will cry even more!!
love is need sacrifice, no matter what kind of sacrifice that you made..
sacrifice in every single time you made will show you the truth of love, when you really want safe someone that u love, protect them from their last breath..hold them and crying out loud, you want make it become yours..one last breath!!!
and suddenly you realize that you want stay together with them and being happy, do anything that they want, accomplish every single promise that you made for them, you will feel more alive when they still breathing and can do everything together..
you will think, when they are with you, you always feel free like wind that always been anywhere and everywhere..and you will feel fly with your freedom and care about them..even everything that you pass through will bring the tears to your eyes you want to do anything with them..
real love, true love that i've called it always been egoist but actually there is no egoism between love..you will feel more and more love that they give to you..its not about who is right who is wrong..its about the feeling, you will not feel that you've been hurt even they feel they hurt you..maybe u feel being hurt but not as much as you feel being love..sometime love is hurt..love is equal to tears..love is warmth that you feel and you shared with other people..love is understanding and faith also the sacrifice..lies just become little part of it..to make your love being more important!!
tears will always become the result of it..true love will bring lot of tears for the joy and happiness..
your day will always been complete when you see them beside you when you awake, just want them to be happy..you will never get bored with that until whenever..
and you will always feel tears in your eyes..
thats all i know about it!!!
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